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Grieving

Iam writing this with heavy heart ! Recently we lost one of our family friend. She was my husband's friend( Mr.A ) wife. Just 3 days before we got a call from our mutual friend seeking the reliability of the information they saw in Facebook. It was very unexpected and all sudden that information was proven legit .  We couldn't accept the fact that , she is no more . My heart become heavy and couldn't able to imagine how her husband and the young child gonna handle this loss. Due to the shock Mr.A got hospitalised and under medication. I grieved the whole day, Imagining how much struggle she might have undergone before leaving the world.  How much the soul might have suffered leaving her loved ones. How this irreplaceable loss gonna take a toll on the child life ?  Who is gonna feed the child now? How is he gonna fit himself into everyday without a mom?  How Mr.A who gonna recover from the shock? It's been 4 days still i can't get out of it. On the other ...
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Naked Emptiness

Time is irreversible, so do the bodily changes in a pregnant women . Though my pelvic floor and vagina stretched well and gone back to its form doing its business , its not easy for me to be back to my own self post pregnancy. Taking care of baby and taking care of myself was bit luxury for me. I got little to more help from my husband since my baby delivery. As months gone i took control of all the household chores and baby chores. Being struck at home we both started to feel the boring vibes between and within us, so I tried not to disturb him too much . Just like the whole world , my plans have been shattered due to PANDEMIC , having no idea what to do further (Man proposes god disposes) we moving along the life's rhythm. We trying to fill our empty days with some memories and happiness but it misses the core value of us. We both are people person ,like we can't be without people. We always try to squeeze people into our lives either partying or travelling . But ...

Carrer break

I use to write a lot during my mid 20’s , well I can call that more of my own scribblings which read by selective group of people . My mid 20’s gave me time and reason to write , being appreciated for what I wrote gave me the confidence to write more . But the truth is , that was the most darkest phase of my life and used writing as my cover to hide myself . I think I did a great job in covering  my pain at the least for the world . But my closest perks know my weakest saddest part well . Now am nearing to start my 30’s , I have seen so many changes in myself and my life has taken a different path now which I never thought or imagined to be (turned out to be good though)! Life has taught me so many lessons and gave me handful of experience and stories. These 10 years from my 20 to 29 years , life has changed me from BTech graduate 👩🏻‍🎓➡️ customer care executive 📞to MBA graduate 🧑🏻‍🎓.  Professional life as Data analyst 👩🏻‍💻➡️ an associate 👩🏻‍💼and  part timer a...

Midnight study stories

It's almost midnight, iam in my apartment lounge studying Japanese. It was a hard phase for me and my husband to tackle all kinds of problems, with the newborn and work from home. It was overwhelming for both of us. After all now we both can come to an understanding and work things out by allocating a specific time for my Japanese study. Yes iam blogging during my study hours, I hope my husband won't read this to get mad at me. Parenting is hard, parenthood made the biggest impact in our lives, when we look back just one year before we could able to do so many things without having a second thought but after baby even peeing needs a second thought as who should have an eye on baby while am doing my business. So preparing for the Japanese exam (JLPT) wasn't easier. But we both working things out making time for each other. We both felt a gap after the baby as we both were tired all the time and I had postpartum depressions. However now we both are not so intimate...

Birth story - Pandemic pregnancy

Thank you might be the least smallest word i can say to the people who kept me in their prayers !  Who were really worried about me and my pregnancy and were supportive. This pregnancy and baby birth gave me a whole new perspective how a positive and a negative vibes influence us . It's been 24 hrs of false labour pain. 6 hrs of god know what on earth that pain to categorize. Amid prevailing covid situation and restrictions. On 25th night the pain started by 11pm and it continued around the clock till morning On 26th came to hospital to get admitted on 11 am my husband left me in the visiting area(due to covid restrictions) with a hug and was in  tears , though I couldn't hold on mine i said to myself to be strong not to waste my energy. As there is a big day waiting ahead of me. Doc after seeing him all alone and with tears in the visiting area told him that it's gonna be alright. After doctors examination thank fully my cervix opened 3 cm already !  She told me to call ...

Menstrual Cycle

Yes being nice to others is easy, but not all the time. When you are undergoing hard times. Women are stronger. Only a women can really feel how strong and powerful, another women is. The all pain she endures through her life. Hey, hey guys hang on ! Look am not a feminist by the way. Am not globalizing (Not everyone) this "Women pain" topic. Rather treat it as a generalized (in general) one. Yes every women deserves to be tagged as stronger women . The pain she endures every month. Yes your guess is correct !.  *******THE MENSTRUAL CYCLE********** As the modern era changes women can now a days take a pill as pain reliver. She deserve to get rid of the pain. But how many of you ever noticed your mom doing all the stuffs for you even though she is on her Menstrual cycle. How many of your ever worried your sister doing household works on her Menstrual cycle instead you being a male child. How many of you even cared about your wife taking care of you and family on her Men...

Episode 1

My Love Anu We both started walking towards our college hostel. Our legs stopped at the gate. Yes! It's our college girls hostel gate she has to be inside the hostel before 10 pm it's almost near 10'o clock. After a half minute of gaze at each other, she said, Hey! Parthi it's already 9.50 I have to go. Looking into her eyes deeply I said go, darling! If u want to go, go! in my usual romantic voice tone holding her hands more tightly." hmm hmm sir has to leave my hands to go", she said and managed to take her hands held like a finger- finger sandwich. She started to run slowly after tweaking my cheeks with so much love. Anu! I love u darling, I murmured which can be heard by Anu. Anu who was run slowly turned back and smiled and waving her hands for saying bye to me, same time her Bangle danced along with her gestures to send off me to my hostel. I started to walk towards my college hostel, we both are classmates, now we are at the end of our college life....

Love has no boundries

Well! Iam being a girl born and bought up in a rural place in India. I've spent my 25 years of my life in that same old place; living, enjoying, accepting the rituals, and practiced the customs taught in my place. Marriage is considered a custom and a bond which is believed to have supernatural powers to lead our life ever happier. If I ask a question "Do you really like your marriage ? to the previous generation the most probable answer will be "I don't know", I obeyed what my parents/family said. Few can take bold steps to say "No I don't like it". Believing the customs and rituals and to blend along the culture of my living place, I got into the time frame where I have to get married, blessed is our generation people, we have at least few rights to choose who we like. I have chosen my guy in my case,(Happily ever and a supernatural bond it is ! yes I agree). Our customs are bit complicated, when a guy tie a knot to a girl, that sav...

International women's day !

International women's day! All_Mens_are_Not_Same Happy women's day to everyone! Women's to cherish about their womanhood, Mens to adore the women’s he has in his life in different roles(Granny, Mother, Partner, Girlfriend, Sister, Neighbourhood, office colleagues,. . . ) Coming back to the phrase All_Mens_are_Not_Same On this women's day I take up a chance to thank the Mens who were present in my life and who moved on. Many stood with me during my hard times.  Many walked along with me to overcome my hurdles  Many protected me when I was mentally down  Few taught me lessons by their worst attitudes  Few helped me by moving away from me  Few irritated me  Few annoyed me I thank everyone.  And there is one Man in my life @boopalan Who gave me the wings to fly  Who gave me the power to walk in my own way Who gave me the strength to overcome my fear  Who shown me that life is so colorful  Who motivated my passion...